The voices in my head

**Yay! It's furniture shopping day!!!**

OMG, do you realize that you have never actually BOUGHT new furniture???

**This is going to be so exciting!**

Deep breaths, take soothing deep breaths, it will be ok.

**Quick, get dressed, all the pretty new stuff is just waiting for you to buy it!!!**

Wait, buy it? I have to spend all the $$$ I have been saving for the last year? What about future bills, and possible car wrecks or emergencies, what do I do? I don't want to spend all my $. When I didn't have any I spent it all the time, now that I have $$ I don't want to spend it. Wait, that's weird? Shouldn't I spend $$ only when I have it? Wow, that seems backwards now that I think about it. Maybe I am just greedy and now that I actually have some cash I want to hoard it. OMG, now I am a hoarder! They are going to put me on one of those TV shows on TLC??? Oh God, I can't take it!

**No, stop thinking, go shop! You have worked for this! You have saved for this! You deserve this! GO SPEND $$$!!!!**

(I drive to the store, pick out wonderful couches and tables and a buffett for my kitchen. I LOVE everything so much it makes me almost jump up and down in the store)

**Girl, you rock! Buy it all! Go for it!**

Maybe you should......

**Shhh, shut up, you get no voice anymore, I win! Buy it, own it! Have people over and party with all your new stuff!**

(So, a couple thousand dollars later it is decided I will be having a party soon when I move out to celebrate me taking charge of my life and owning not only new stuff, but a new attitude to go with it!)