Humph =-/

Somewhere in my constant need to see the best in people I have allowed the worst in people to walk all over me. I reafuse to believe that there isn't more than what meets the eye, I see deeper, I always think there is something there and I am going to be the one to bring it out in someone. The truth is, people can't take their walls down no matter how high I climb. My desire to always please others has left me heartbroken and wounded in so many ways. Lost in a world not knowing where to turn next; every direction looking scarier than the option before it. While my intimate relationships have hurt me the most, I am not only referring to being lost in love. Life is scary and not having someone to share that with makes it even scarier. I have always thought I was tough. My family tells me I am that girl....you know the one, the kind who lights up the space she is in and makes everyone around her glow. I feel the light going out sometimes because it has been so bashed and broken it finds it hard to shine. Don't get me wrong, I will keep fighting, but I need to find a way to fight for me and let go of putting myself last in the line to please. I'm not sure how to do this, but you gotta start somewhere....