Yep, that's right. It's official. I'm being haunted.
Have you ever seen "Ghosts of Girlfriends Past"? Probably not, it wasn't very good despite having Jennifer Garner and Matthew McConaug-HEY. Don't get me wrong, I love me some serious chick flick even when they aren't great, and Emma Stone made a fantastic showing in her rising career....but I'm getting off topic (ADD, I know).
Back to me being haunted. My ghosts are of my dating past. From the insignificant, to the mildly hurtful, to the completely heartbreaking, my ghosts have decided to all re-appear within 24 hours of each other. I will take the blame for only one....of course it is the gut wrenching scariest ghost of all that is my fault.
But really, it is like men have a 6th sense that lets them know when maybe, just maybe I might for 24 hours be handling life on my own and think I can do it without anyone and then they all swarm in and remind me how much at one point I wanted them in my life. So, what do I do to ease the scary moment, to get past the fear of the ghosts lingering in every corner of my brain.....drugs. No, not literally, I am not a crazy person, but I have my drug of choice. It's warm, and cozy, and soft, and it fills me up when I need it. My drug rarely touches my lips like candy, but it still makes my heart race like sugar in my blood. Does it make me crash and burn in withdrawal, yep. But I got my high. I had temporary relief from my ghosts. I wish my drug was more, I've tried, but at this point I will take what I can get because I'm not willing to give it up. I'm too haunted to let go, and see too much good to not want more.
Halloween might be right around the corner, but this girl is going to try and have her ghosts killed by then.
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