"Something has changed within me. Something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep. It's time to trust my insticts, close my eyes and leap.....I'm through accepting limits because someone says they're so. Somethings I cannot change, but until I try I'll never know.....It's time to try defying gravity. I think I'll try defying gravity, and you can't pull me down."

Monday, January 3, 2011

The Year of Me

2011

I'm going to trying really hard to take it day by day and at the end of the year realize I kicked its ass.

As said by Sara Bareilles "All my life I've tried to make everybody happy while I just hurt and hide waiting for someone to tell me its my turn to decide"---well I'm not waiting for anyone to tell me. It's my turn. It's my life. It's my happiness at stake.

Last year I took the time to focus financially on getting myself settled. I need to continue to focus on that path (I mean we all know I heart shopping), but this year I am going to focus more personally. Focus on me. I have made resolutions in the past to be a better friend, be a better listener, share more of myself, lose weight.....this year my resolution is simply this: Do what is good for me. I hate making choices based on my wants, I have never been able to do it, so this will be the hardest thing I have ever tried to do, but I am determined to be in a better place in 12 months and it starts with making ME my own top priority.

Wish me luck =)